Idols, desires and affections, My thoughts and Journaling

Idolatrous desires

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For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
(Matthew 6:21)

Writing this is bittersweet because I feel like I’m constantly dethroning idols that have infiltrated my heart. And publicly sharing my understanding of this will not only hold me accountable but leave me with no excuses.

See I know that I can not seek (or love) God with all my heart, when part of it is seeking other things (including someone else). I have to beware of what I set my heart on because even good and godly desires can become idols.

An idol is anything more important to me than delighting in or serving God (alone). It is my deepest longing. Whatever I am lusting for or after. Some common idols that I have worshiped are:

  • Control and perfectionism
  • Prestige (recognition and validation from this world)
  • Beauty
  • Natural health and wellness, organic food etc.
  • Beautiful homes
  • My children
  • My husband and marriage
  • Entrepreneurship
  • Ministry
  • Happiness

Just to name a few.  And what I’ve learned is that through convictions and restlessness, God frustrates my ideas making it nearly impossible to pursue my idols. This is how I know when a desire has become an idol.

If I want something (or some things!) so bad that I begin to sin when I don’t get it (or to attain it), then I have a MAJOR problem and it’s called an idol.  Even if what I want is good! Because in reality, what I personally desire is only as good as my patience and trust in God for it. If I can’t continue to love and to EXALT God in the meantime, and I become discontent and miserable then I  am not committed to (or delighting in) the Lord. In fact,  I am sinning because my affections, and appetite or cravings shouldn’t be on anything but Him, His Son and their coming kingdom.

Everything (and everybody!) will always be competing for our affections. Especially in this era of technology and consumerism. Now don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with genuinely wanting a house or a child. It’s not the end of the world, but will it be to you if you never get them? Becoming angry (especially toward the things of God ), frustrated, manipulative, covetous or full of self pity are all results of idolizing our desires. So is rebellion. I was notorious for seeking temporary comfort and relief from God’s chastising. In my pride I would turn to things like:

  • Food
  • Sleep
  • TV
  •  Social media
  • Shopping, etc.

And I don’t know if it’s just me but it’s like I can not worship anything other than God. Of course it’s sin but it’s also tormenting spending all of my time, energy and money daydreaming about, planning for and longing after idols. And the worst part is that they don’t even truly satisfy! Once conquered, we’re always wanting MORE—Bigger or better!

Hell and destruction are never full; so the eyes of man are never satisfied. (Proverbs  27:20)

So, I just wanted to share my thoughts. May we all just delight solely in the Lord.. In obedience and in hopes that He’ll find our hearts “empty” enough to start storing His own perfect desires♥♥

Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. (Psalm 37:4-5)

Your sister,